Just pure angst really, thanks to mrsrobynlupin sorry i made you cry, but forgive me <3 and muddyasblood i love you more than life its self, we will be together in arcadia one day, and they will play pulp and we will drink gin in teacups. This story is dedicated to them and Ben (you broke my heart but soon it will be mended)
<lj-cut text="clickme”>I hate how you make me feel about myself, telling me you love me one day, and the next day you need space to clear your head. Are you with or without me Carl? You mess me about, but I still go back for more. I don’t understand love, but then who does? I don’t regret been in love with you, I’m just messed up at the moment, I don’t know what I want. I want to be your mate, I love you to death, and from the moment that I met you I loved you. That aura around you, like a moth to a flame, I was dragged in, and no matter how many times you burnt me, I still come running back. I never learn, do I? You used nuzzle up against me on stage. Give the fans something to perv over, you used to say, but behind closed doors there were fights and blue lights at least once a week. We were like the Romeo and Juliet of the music scene, so wrong but so right for each other. Then came the drugs. I swapped one eternal love for another. The brown. Even to think about it makes me sick to the pit of my stomach. I gave you up for some quick buzz that chases though my veins.
I’m so, so sorry for messing you around, you know I love you. That’s why I’m here, now, about to knock on your door. </lj-cut>